I’m not scared….

 

 

 

The thunderstorms here in the jungle can be a little disconcerting at times.

I am often summoned to sleep in the kids room when at big one rolls in during the night.

Elijah got up the other morning and proudly announced that he wasn’t scared during the storm the previous night.

Really?  I asked.

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Yeah, I just remembered that God is taking care of me and then I went back to sleep.

Slimy Undersides

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I opened the kitchen cabinet to get something out, and this little fellow jumped out and onto my neck!  I couldn’t get him to hold still long enough to capture a picture of his bright orange underarms. Sometimes it seems like life throws a bunch of slimy things at us… but I encourage you to ask God to help you hold still and look closely. Maybe your slimy surprise has a beautiful underside as well.  Many Blessings ♥

Voy Un Paso Mas (I’m Going One Step Further)

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Here we are in Puca-Chicta.
Sweat is beaded on my face and trickling down my back.
Flies, mosquitos, and arenillas swarm around me.
There are seventy to eighty kids around, and it feels like half of them are trying to grab my light-colored hair.
It’s all I can do to keep from screaming:
“I don’t want to understand your language!”
“Stop touching my hair!”
“Find somebody else to bother, ’cause I’m not the one with necklaces and tracts!”
I escape to a cool wall of the pavilion gym and lean against it. Bienvenidos, it says. Under that, Puca-Chicta, and a picture of a lake surrounded by trees.
I catch a sob in my throat, and I warn it about what happens when people see you crying. But it dares to come out anyway.
This is nothing like that lake and forest picture. I feel like choking whoever painted it.
I close my eyes and just listen, because my eyes are stinging.
Spanish, English, laughter. Some music, some yelling.
I still feel grumpy. But I open my eyes and look around.
Native kids dancing around with a team from North Carolina. Some dogs, some birds.
Uh-huh. What else?
Souls, I think. I guess everybody here has a soul.
I swallow. And these souls are going straight down to hell unless someone does something. Really does something.
I stand up and take a deep breath.
I walk up to the closest person and just say hola.
She smiles, and asks what my name is.
I say Madeline, what’s yours?
The answer is Oliah.
I smile.
I’ve been praying for her since her name was mentioned in a girl’s Bible study.
Okay, I tell God. You win. I’m really going to do something for these people.
And we sit down on the concrete bleachers for the VBS program.
This is just going to get better and better.

Coffee: Decaf, Half-caf, and 100% Caffeinated

 

I don’t drink coffee.

I mean, I’m not supposed to.

What kind of mother lets their kids drink coffee, you ask?

Ahem. Mine.

But only sometimes. I am not a coffee-maniac. Yet.

Note: Blame McDonald’s for the $1 coffee they had right before we came to Ecuador.

I don’t care if it’s hot or cold- anything from a steaming mocha to an iced latte is great.

Instant is fine, but if you want to smash those little coffee beans up, I’m cool with that too.

I am not picky when it comes to my parents’ coffee breaks.

There’s just one thing: It can’t be decaf or half-caf. Especially not half-caf.

Who wants to be able to sleep at night when you have books to read? Go caffeine! Unless, of course, you actually like caffeine-free coffee and soda. Hey, I won’t judge you. But that’s a whole other blog.

Doesn’t half-caf coffee scream: “Halfway! Lukewarm!” (I mean besides screaming: “Not the real deal! Go caffeine!”)

Lukewarm? It means moderately warm; tepid. Having or showing little ardor, zeal, or enthusiasm; indifferent.

There’s a Bible verse about that halfway stuff:

“So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spew you out of My mouth. -Revelation 3:16

My Dad’s Bible is pretty cool- in the margins it says spew is the same as spit or vomit.

Doesn’t it sound like God’s hammering them for not being totally for Him?

“No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon. -Matthew 6:24

How about this? Doesn’t it sound like God’s hammering US for not being totally for Him?

Next time you get a coffee somewhere- whether it’s at McDonald’s or Starbucks- think about if you’re really completely and totally 100% for God.

The Wheels on the Bus

We’re all dressed in our nicest shirts and cleanest pair of jeans. 
We pile into the school bus (a.k.a. a 15 passenger van) and head to Tena.
It’s a miraculous fit: fourteen of the fifteen seats are filled.
Second seat back and five minutes later, Antony, Eualia, Meira and I are belting out “The Wheels on the Bus” as loud as we can- along with the rest of the van- with Tyler in the lead singing opera. We sing She’ll Be Comin’ Round the Mountain, Old McDonald Had a Farm, and a variety of Five Little Monkeys songs.
After a 30-40 minute ride, we girls are dropped off at the Hilton Pizza. The guys head for the hamburgers, and we head upstairs.
We open with prayer directly after the waiter brings out the aji (a spicy South American sauce) and popcorn. Keri leads the reading of Proverbs 31, and we write down the parts that speak to us the loudest….
This woman sews, cooks, gets up while it it still dark outside, and buys entire fields for vineyards! My favorite verses are 20 and 26:
She extends her hand to the poor, yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
and
She opens her mouth with wisdom, and on her tongue is the law of kindness.
I have a lot to work on. And this is just one chapter of the Bible.
By the time we’re done reading, our 3 pizzas are ready and we’re chowing down.
#1 is gone in 5 minutes.
#2 is smothered and devoured with aji. 
#3 is getting the slow-down eye.
#4 is raising the question “how many have you had?”.
#5 is “let’s save some for Keri, dear, she’s on her 1st slice.”
I drink a cup of Coca-Cola and listen to everything.
Mom, Ms. Charmai, Keri, and Marisol are talking on one end of the table… Saida, Jadyra, Eulalia, Abigail, and me are on the other end.
I sigh.
Even after 7 months and a couple of lessons, Spanish is still a big deal. Yes, I can understand a little…. but can I speak it? No-ooo sir-ee.
Once we’re finished eating and we’ve paid,  we walk to Yogurth, a yogurt ice-cream parlor. It isn’t really far, but with 5 pieces of pizza it seems farther. Crêpes, lemonades, and cones are part of the experience- although I can’t recommend it with or without half a pizza in your guts.
Our dessert is interrupted by a Morse Code of car-horn honking: HURRY UP. WE’RE ALREADY FINISHED. At least I think that’s what it was.
On the way back, there’s less singing and more talking.
All I can think is: next time, stop at slice #4.

Fight It Every Step of the Way?

There was a guy in school who I think could sing any jingle ever aired.  I was impressed, since this was a skill I decidedly lacked.

I do recall one about “wash that gray right out of my hair” and another that made reference to “not grow old gracefully but fight it every step of the way”
These remembrances are quickly followed by the thought that a person somehow earns the signs of aging and they should be worn like a badge, one earned through their own grit and works.
We have a small mirror at the house.
I can see an eye or my mouth, but not all at the same time.
I have grown to like this feature of our home.
Unfortunately, our friends have a well lit bathroom with a large mirror.
After a trip to use their facilities, my sudden self- awareness (please, let’s not call it pride…) led me to think about a natural henna hair dye. Or perhaps I could just keep the gray and pass it off on all the changes this past year.
As often happens the Bible gives us understanding that commercial jingles simply fail to convey.
This verse struck me especially hard.
Proverbs 16:31  The hoary head is a crown of glory, if it be found in the way of righteousness.
If.
What is that all about…. if?
Unfortunately, in the past I have picked up burdens that were better left alone.  I have struggled against God like an infant crawling towards the fire.   I have rejected His peace that surpasses understanding and refused His light yoke.
How many of these hairs will be found in the way of righteousness?
How many will not?
How many will be accounted for as rebellion, being stiff necked, having lack of faith?  Fear?  Pride?
Ow, that hurts much worse than the gray.
So I am not going to dye it.
Not because I have some deep theological reason against it.
But because at this place in my life, I need it.
To see it.
To be reminded.
That
Each moment, each day, is a gift of grace.  Not earned.
Each choice has eternal consequences, not just physical.
Each silver hair from here on out; I want to counted as a beautiful crown of glory.
For His Glory.

Elijah, Andy, Moo-chella, and Me

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

10:00 am

 

Abigail and Daddy are with the team in Puca-Chicta today.

I thought I was going to get to lay in bed all day, but then I remembered that I had to watch Elijah because Mom would be teaching Dad’s classes.

“Ha, ha Muggy! You are sleeping I am awake! Hahaha,” Elijah screamed directly into my ear canal.

“Uuuugghhh.” was all I could manage. See, it takes me a while to wake up.

So after Abigail and Daddy left, Mom went to the school.

And she came right back.

“Madeline,” she said, “You know how Ms. Cecelia has a little boy Elijah’s age?”

I rolled over to face her. “Mmmm…”

“Well, she thought I would be able to watch him today,”

“Yohastagoaschoo,” I mumbled. Takes my mouth a while to wake up, too.

“Yeah, okay, so I want you to keep an eye on him, for a little while, until her husband can pick him up,” she said.

I was now fully awake. “What?”

But she was already at school.

Ms. Cecelia was really nice, she said Andy had juice and cookies, and thank you for watching him.

 

So, here I am.

We played with toy cars, little Buzz Lightyears, our cow doll Moo-chella, puppets, blocks, magnets… in short, all of the toys.

We tried to communicate.

Then we ate Doritos.

We drank juice.

We read Brown Bear, Brown Bear. Twice.

We cried because we got in trouble for spitting juice out.

We are currently watching Chicken Little on a disc with 5 animated films in Spanish.

Still tying to communicate….

Blessings,

Madeline

Homesick

 

I mean, if I wasn’t already over the whole “moving trauma”, I would be homesick anywhere, and all the time, not just after a week in Quito.

Right?

I stand totally corrected.

Yes, I still think about Ga, and Fl too, even though most of my time in the States was spent in the Georgia mountains.

But I mean where I belong.

And it’s scary, I know, I’m a little freaked out just thinking about it:

Misahualli is starting to be home for me.

‘Cause I was thinking about it, and I guess home is made up of familiar places, people, and culture… language is a big one that is kinda overlooked.

Don’t get me wrong, I have a long way to go until I am completely comfortable with the ways of Ecuador’s peoples, but I am much more at ease with the people in the jungle than the people in the USA.

Walking down the street and seeing your friends from school waving at you.

Going to the local store and being able to buy something while you talk to the owner’s daughter.

Having a ball kicked at your head because the kids in the street want you to join the soccer game.

Running through my yard/the jungle, and knowing which plants’ sharp thorns would rip my jeans in half.

 

So All May Know HIM,

Madeline Studebaker

Escalators, Ice Cream, and Umbrellas… Police?

 

We are in Quito for Christmas Break! Yay! House/pet sitting for the Coyle’s while they are in the States.

 

Had to get some food and groceries, so we went to the San Luis Shopping mall.

After dinner at the KFC in the food court, Abigail and I asked if we could go up the escalator.

The descending one.

And Mom said yes.

Didn’t expect her to let us, but I figured she thought it was safe enough for a 12 and 10 year old. It didn’t click that she doesn’t really let us do anything that we won’t learn from.

Let’s just say my shins are pretty banged up, and my face made contact with the ‘moving stairs’ more than once. Way more than once.

And afterward, we ran in to a security guard upstairs.

I started to freak out. I couldn’t breathe, my throat was swelling up, and my converses seemed to get smaller. I looked for a girl with brownish/reddish/blondish hair like mine so I could say “Look! The culprit who climbed up the down escalators!” if things got bad.

I smiled and tried to look smaller, tried to disappear. But all the officer said was something about the Play Zone at the other end of the mall.

That was probably the longest time I’ve ever held my breath. EVER.

 

Then we went to Crepes and Waffles, the ice cream parlor that we went to on my birthday.

After our banana splits (with little paper umbrellas stuck in them), tiramisu, toffee brownie, and clown-shaped ice cream, we headed outside.

It was pouring rain, and there was lightning and thunder.

Put the umbrellas in your pocket,” Dad told Abigail. But the thunder was louder, and it almost deafened us.

Huh?” Abigail asked.

PUT THE UMBRELLAS IN YOUR POCKET!” he repeated.

A man with a (real) black umbrella was standing near us while my dad said this both times.

I would if I could,” he said, shaking the umbrella off with aggravation.

And Dad didn’t realize until we told him, an hour later.

 

 

-Madeline Studebaker

Where and When?

Dear Friend,

 We made a commitment for one year and we weren’t sure what it would lead to.

 And now it is half over.

 As we sat for a family discussion this week, one of my daughters declared that we belong in the jungle.  Not in the States,  but where the Lord has called us.  The jungles of Ecuador.  I am encouraged by such youthful faith and wisdom.

 Our school year here ends in July and then we will be  returning to the States.  Ready to share what we have been blessed to see. What we have been blessed to do, and how we have been enabled to serve.

What we are called to return and do.

 So why am I sending you this letter?  Because once again we have an empty calendar, waiting to be filled.  Stories of God’s Word, His calling, and provision and pictures of His people, waiting to be shared.

  When can we come and share with you and your church?

 So All May Know Him,

The Studebaker Family
Eric, Amy, Madeline, Abigail, and Elijah

www.soallmayknow.org